Cardboard masks of all the people I've been

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too tired to write an entry now. Later.

What song, if any, reminds you of me?

Put this in your journal too. The answers might surprise you.

Stole this off of Alwaysinaworry's journal.

Do it if you want...it may be fun.

~Danie

Check out the background! Oh yeah! I made it myself!! All of you who are looking at this post on your friends page please proceed to my journal and TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!! I was pretty proud...thought it looked pretty cool if I don't say so myself...and i DO! :D

~Danie

So apparently nobody wants to read the start of my story but...I'm posting it anyway...because I really need some fee back! So please do...cuz if it sucks I'd like to know....thanks


I can’t move. I can’t move at all. I am standing completely still, paralyzed. I have been over come by fear; the fear has paralyzed me. I can hear my left-brain laugh at me. “It’s easy. Left foot, right foot, before you know it you’ll be moving.” Logic has nothing to with this. Yes, logically I should be able to move. To pick up that left foot and move it forward, then repeat the action with its twin. But this deep depression I have found myself in has nothing to do with logic. The word logic does not even in reality belong in the same sentence as depression.

The freezing bite of Jack Frost hits me, throwing my hair around wildly, but I can’t feel it. What I do feel is the air around me change as someone brushes past and I am brought back to reality. I check out my surroundings. I am standing on the curb of a busy street, and I now realize just why I had been paralyzed. Had my left-brain been in charge I would be sprawled out on the hard concrete, blood pouring out of my flesh slowly forming a puddle, my vulnerable body caught under the heavy bus that now stands before me. An angry bus driver glares at me, surely wanting to know whether or not I wanted on. I shake my head and take a step back from the curb. The bus driver shakes his head too, as he pulls away from the curb I had been standing on.

I numbly reach my hand up instinctively to feel if any tears had formed. To my surprise, none had. My hand drops to my side and I let out a sigh to follow the action. I turn my head to the right to see an elderly woman shaking her head in my direction. Apparently my look is not appealing to her. I subconsciously fix my hair, as if perhaps that small action could somehow change the woman’s opinion of me. It doesn’t. I quickly turn my head away form her, hoping not to irritate her any further. As I am turning my head I notice the scene before me start to blur together, like a poorly shot picture. The skyscraper buildings no longer scrapped the sky, but had somehow become part of it. Everything was one, and I could do nothing more than stare in wonder at this new world that surrounded me. My breathing started to quicken as I continued to look around. I could hear voices now, which also seemed to be blurred.

“Areyouokaylady?” A plump balding man asked.

“Someonegetadocoter!” Someone else called.

My breathing continued to quicken and I held my hand to my chest. Nothing like this had ever happened to me before. I could feel my legs shake uncontrollably before finally giving way. The last thing I felt before the world turned black was my head connecting hard with the littered sidewalk.

~Danie

You are a LONER. Tho u like being with other
people, it's nice to have some time for
yourself too. And sometimes people are
annoying...so it's better to be alone and do
whatever you like. So yeah...go away!


Yet another personality test ^-^ (nice anime pics!)
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Ouch! I'm annoying...well I have been filling up your friend pages....but still...I didn't think I was annoying....



Sad... You use the darkness to hide yourself from
the world. Something has really hurted you,
which made you turn dark. Darkness makes you
feel save and that is why you stay there.

Please rate ^^


What kind of dark person are you?
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<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( Anime Pics )
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AH! DARK ANGEL! LIKE THE CRAZY SHOW!!! oooh...smallville's on tonight :D


Dead Fairy
Please Rate my quiz I worked really hard for this
thanks


Which Fairy are you?(for anyone many out comes)
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SELENE: You are selene!
Beautiful, vivacious,
fierce and seductive, Selene vowed she would
destroy Lycans after her family was murdered by
the werewolves. So ruthless is she that selene
is a member of the Death Dealers. This elite
Vampire warrior class's mission is to make the
Lycans extinct.
Ever wish you could be a
vampire?







Which UNDERWORLD character are you?
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:D


You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.

"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."

Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.

As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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You know that voice in your head that tells you all those horrible things. "I'm ugly. I'm fat. No one likes me. No one loves me. Why would anyone ever love me. I don't deserve love." I don't know if it's possible to reprogram that voice, but I'd like to think I could make a second one...maybe one that could yell over the other. So here goes my start. I went through my year books and stuff...this is what I came up with.

"You have many talents and gifts to share, let us enjoy them."

"remember that you'll always have friends that are here for you."

"Trust the voice within and know that you are beautiful."

"I realized my stone is actually your smile. I hope I find it."

"Your smile is bright and youre eyes sparkle with life"

"'D' is for 'dazzling'"

"It has been my pleasure to work with you, I sincerely hope to see you onstage once again."

"wow, you are just so amazing. Honestly, you're so energetic and enthusiastic, with a hing of EVIL" :P

"Don't doubt your talent because it's there and it's brilliant."

"If I was never going to see you again, I would say that you were the most talented, wonderful, friendly perosn I know.."

"I hope I alwasy have a friend as good as you in my life."

"I'm going to miss you the most (and I didn't write that in anyone else's yearbook)"

"I'm here for you and I will be fore as long as you need me to be. And if/when you don't, I'll still be there"

"You are so beautiful."

"You are too important to just slip away."

"You are a wonderful, fun, witty, exuberant girl who has TONS to give to the world!"

"You have friends and family who love you. You are loved!!!"


I'm sure there are more....but this is all I can find for now. Feel free to add anything you want...:) feed my non-exsistant ego lol

~Danie

Just leave a message if you want to be added like the banner says. I will most likely add you back.

~Danie

So I found out today that apparently some person who like doesn't even know me has been reading my journal and like telling people about it, which just pisses me off. So now I'm going friends only, even though I don't have many friends and it seems pointless. I'm so angry. If you don't want to hear about my 'sad life' or whatever you probably won't want to be my friend. This is my journal, and I do like to write about my life and what's going on in my mind. I'm to angry to elaborate right now.

~Danie

I just started making icons...very exciting...tell me what you think...or not...whatever. There all the same...but yeah...I'm weird that way.















Again...tell me what you think! I'm curius as to how much I suck...

~Dani

01. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before? I did some *stuff* with Caitie...had an acutual fun night...

02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? No, I didn't...these scares are proof. No, I won't, I never keep them anyway.

03. Did anyone close to you give birth? No, but my cosin Mel is pregnant...so that's amazing.

04. Did anyone close to you die? That really depends on your definition of death...no one close to me is phyiscally dead...

05. What countries did you visit? France, Germany...and the alps.

06. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? I'd like to feel this thing they call love...

07. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? October 7th!! Matchbox Twenty!!! OMG! Best night of my life by far. I will never be that happy again.

08. What was your biggest achievement of the year? An A+ on my drama presentation...no one can comprehend how happy that makes me.

09. What was your biggest failure? Biggest failure....I am a failure....

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? When I'm not sick...which is rare...I'm injured so...yeah...when didn't I?

11. What was the best thing you bought? Concert tickets, oh, and Caitie's present...it really seemed to make her smile...and Caitlin happy makes me happy! sort of...

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Hensel was nice to me for the first time this year...I don't know if that merits celebration though...

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? I'm sure everyone's did at some point. Paul seems to stick out in my mind...

14. Where did most of your money go? To the caf at wci

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? RENT!!! MB20!!!

16. What song will always remind you of 2003? Where is the love?

17. Compared to this time last year, you are: A lot sadder...oh where oh where did my cowboy go?

ii. thinner or fatter? FATTER! *Shock* I'm always fatter...

iii. richer or poorer? poorer.. much poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Spent more time with Paul...maybe he wouldn't have left me...

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Sat in my room, alone, thinking....

20. How will you be spending Christmas? We're going to see LOTR...which really bothers me, but I'm not an important part of my family...

22. Did you fall in love in 2003? in love? I'd like to say no...but I did...

23. How many one-night stands? none...

24. What was your favorite TV program? smallville...ER...

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? No, I don't hate. I can pretend I hate someone, but I never have.

26. What was the best book you read? Prozac Nation

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Jack Johnson

28. What did you want and got? Nothing

29. What did you want and not get? My heart back...

30. What was your favorite film of this year? The Hours...even if it wasn't made this year....

31. What did you do on your birthday: nothing.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Having one really close friend for a whole year...

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003? I don't have a fashion concept...I just wear what I like! What's wrong with that?? I died my hair black....

34. What kept you sane? my razors

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Michael Rosenbaum. I adore him. Can he teach me how to act?

36. What political issue stirred you the most? Which political issues don't bother me?? Really??

37. Who did you miss? Paul, Cat, Tracy, Zamin, Nina, Andy...who didn't I miss at some point...?

38. Who was the best new person you met? Caitlin...she's the coolest.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003: Trust no one.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt"

You are going to slit your wrists.


How are you going to Commit Suicide?
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Seer


The ULTIMATE personality test
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You are the depressed rock!


::Which rock personality disorder (from the Zoloft commercial) should you have? (Results contain pictures!)
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Borderline.
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by
mood instability and poor self-image. People
with this disorder are prone to constant mood
swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will
take their anger out on themselves, causing
themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions
are not uncommon. They think in very black and
white terms and often form intense, conflict-
ridden relationships. They are quick to anger
when their expectations are not met.


Which personality disorder might you have?
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"Bent"


Which Matchbox Twenty Song Are You (with pics)
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You're Susanna Kaysen...a troubled soul who isn't
sure what's going on in the world. You're told
you're Borderline, but you don't even know what
that is. Poor you... (>_<)


Which "Girl, Interrupted" Character Are You?
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"I never sleep/Avoiding the spots/Where we'd
have to speak." You are "Screaming
Infidelities." You've had your heart
broken, and right now you can't face the
heartbreaker, and are looking for a rebound,
someone, anyone to have and hold. Poor thing.
You'll find the real thing again one day.


What Dashboard Confessional song are you? (now with images! more questions/results soon to come!)
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Tourniquet.


What Evanescence song are you?
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A big thank you to Caitlin for getting me this journal, I've wanted an LJ for a while so this is purty cool. I have lots more to say, but not now. Maybe tomorrow...or whenever I get my internet back...Grrr....stupid step sisters...

~Danie